yeah, i am doing it for myself as well as her. I told her that I love her, and I mean that. So if I leave her when she needs me most, I would've been lying. I'm no lier. i know she'll straighten up, she's even told me she hates the way she is when she is on it. I will question her about that the next time that I talk to her. I'm just going to keep praying, keep talking to her therapist, and do what my heart says.. Ever had your mind and your heart wanting to do 2 conflicting things? Sucks don't it.. My mind says be smart and run. My heart says that I care about her and she needs help, and i need to do what I can. I'm trying not to let it bring me down too much, but there is only so much I can really handle.. I know one things for sure, I will be a much stronger person after all of this is said and done. I know I shouldn't put myself through this, and know that most of you are going to say that I shouldn't be putting myself through this, but when you care about someone more than they care about thereselves, there tends to be some pain. But I'm getting stronger in dealing with this, and I'll try to make it. Thank all of you once again. - Jonathan
