LittleFishie.. i've had my fair share of tripping, but never had a TERRIBLE trip like you seemed to have done.
I've realized that when you're tripping the vibes people set around you heighten, and if you didn't like the people surrounding you, chances are you'll have a bummer experience like you did
bad trips are no fun.
I always made sure i was surrounded by my close friends who I knew i could trust and have a good time with, or they were doing it with me and sharing the experience. I've done shrooms 3 times, and i've never done it again since my third trip which was the most insane thing in the world-- that was my final straw too.
i was actually hallucinating highly, couldnt walk straight, things were morphing into other things, and i was in a club for a concert and got kicked out
[they thought i was drunk,lol] i didnt drive up to D.C. where the show was, and my boyfriend with the keys 2 the car was still inside the building. IT WAS SCARY!
i felt alone... and thought about my mother as well, and how disappointed she'd be.
i thought i was going to die too, or get arrested (because i had stuff on me that my boyfriend told me to hold cause he was gonna try and sell
)
it was a very emotional thing.. but somehow a woman found my guy and he rescued me (from being alone anyway, i admit he was the one who got me into all that stuff in the first place :rolleyes: ). too bad nobody was there to rescue you.
but you helped yourself in a way!
i'm proud that you've come to a realization that you don't need these things to have a good time (and though i think it's fun sometimes, when you have a bad trip, you just beg for it 2 end!!)
i wish you luck and congrats on the decision.
i'm trying to clean up my act too and do the same.. it's just hard.
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i am coming to the conclusion that if you surround yourself with positive people, you will get better. i'm being helped by being close to Jared (and other drug-free alcohol-free people) and having him show me the light, and making me realize being clean is fine and i don't need drugs to have a good time.. he's like a major support even if he isn't directly with me [im not even sure if he knows that, either, hehe] i can look back at my ex-boyfriend (who's still messed up) and i know he's wrong... and i don't need him.. just as u dont need the drugs or ur drug-friends. u can still chill with them, no doubt, but stay clean yourself!
