Ok, first off..... I'm sure my girlfriend will be on here while I'm at work to read this. So, I love you very much honey, but I've got to ask for some outside non-biast help.
I believe all people have atleast ONE god given talent. It just so happens that I've got one and I'm proud of it. I was born to play the drums and that's what I LOVE to do. There are very few forms of release. When I'm playing the drums and in middle of a show, I feel worry free, like I'm pouring my emotions into ever flick of the drum stick. I wasn't tought to play, I just knew how. As strange as that may sound, it's true. I beat on pots and pans as a child. I beat on them at my uncles house, but no one ever taught me. One day in my 5th grade band class, out teacher asked us if we'd like to play the "Drum set". There is sat, the big white set with a big mean tiger on the front bass drum head. Several of us wanted to, so I waited in line as I listened to some HORRIBLE efforts to play a beat. It was my turn and I sat down and some how just knew what to do. I started to play a rock beat without really thinking about it. It's been history since then.
Anyway, I think that this talent is my one and only chance to be TRULY successful in life. I mean, yes I can go to school and be whatever I want to be. I'm in a band now and doing well. We all want to make it big and that's possible. But we all know that there is 29393 bands out there and only a handfull make it.
In some recent talks with my girlfriend of 3 years, we came up on the subject of me making it "big" in drumming. Now, I'm looking out for me. If some big band is looking for a replacement, I'll try out and if I make it, I'll go and do what it takes. This is where my trouble begins. My GF says she'll leave me if I make it big. She says she doesn't want me around the girls, drugs, fame, GIRLS, GIRLS....... get my point?????? Anyway, I tell her that it doesn't mean I have to give into the temptations. I feel as if she is saying that she would hold me back from doing what I want. This scares me, if she has a chance to do something to better herself or her life, I would encourage it. Granting it wasn't something like a porn star!!!!
Anyway, it's truely my life goal to make it as a drummer/musician. It's the only thing I'm truely good at and I want to pursue it. I love my GF VERY VERY Much and want her to enjoy it with me (if it ever happens). What do you all think of this? Any suggestions to tell her?
sorry so long... maybe I should write a book........ This has just got me depresssed......... Jason
