Man, what a night of eye openers.. So there is this girl who i have been friends with for a long time. we dated a few years back, then lost touch. well in the last 6 month, we have been spending alot of time together. and ill admit it, i was falling in love with her. she had a boy friend of like a year and a half, so i was willing to put my feelings on the shelf, she told me that it was mutual, but i didnt want to come between them. she has been having some random problems and i was pretty much the one who was there for her, and fixed everything. she would call me when she was down. and i was glad to help. then she broke up with her boyfriend, couldnt take his sh*t anymore. and i was like ok, this opens some doors, but im not gunna rush it. she was tellin me how she doesnt want a relationship and understood, and i didnt even ask her out, she was just expressing her feelings and stuff, well then i hear about a week later she is with some other guy. and i was like oh that really sucks.
thats 6 months pretty much wasted, dont get me wrong, i wasnt listening to her and being a friend just to get some, but it was in my headand a while bck we had decided to go to the pop disaster tour show (green day/ blink 182) with a bunch of friends. and we were havin fun, then she is like ill be back in a minute and i go to take a leak, an i find her makin out with this one dude that i know, not even the "new boyfriend" an i was like wow, that sucks. the worst part is that i had a lot of respect, i really thought she wasnt the type of girl who would go around and pull stuff like that. yeah that on top of a good few weeks of being depressed has really gotten me in a sad/angry/depressed mood oh well. ill get over it. i dunno just needed to vent, sorry for the long post...
