I'll keep my advice short as possible as this is a longggggggggggg thread. I have have never lost a lover before, but I have lost some of those I love, one to suicide. Let me tell you something Bad Apple, IT HURTS! Depression can be an ugly thing. You may not care about yourself, but what should stop you as those who love you. This include: parents, friends, relatives, co-workers, your contour, etc. If you hold out, later you will be glad that you didn't do it, trust me, I speak from experience. Talk to a psychologist, they are very helpful. At the risk of being flamed here, pray about it and ask God for help. I can't give you much advice as to how to cope, but when I am down, I try to stay very busy. Do fun things or find projects that need doing to keep my mind off. If I just sit there and sulk it gets much worse. I am sure you will find true love, but it wont' come when you expect it to. Good luck in dealing with your situation. Maybe it would cheer you up to go for a nice (slow) cruise in your car. Best of wishes. Sorry the post ran longer than I thought.
