like the others have already...dont do anything harmful to yourself because of someone else....i dont know how old you are and dont mean to insult you if you are relatively young...just seems to me that alot of what u are going through has to do with age at least to some extent....
u have enough relationships u are bound to lose someone u love at least once....we've all been there and anyone who met and was able to perhaps marry their soulmate first time out and have it work is a lucky person
i got my heart stomped by my first girlfriend as an adult....we were engaged and all that stuff...then one day while she was at work she told me she was breaking up with me....i picked her up that day as i always had and sat in the car and cried like a byaaaaatch while she let me down easy...worse thing was that i knew it was coming...we had no chemistry at all and i actually had a dream a couple days before that let me know what was coming...still just the thought of being dumped was the worse part and really killed me
being on the rebound is how i met my next girlfriend....she was fun...loved to party....loved sex (ultimately not with me though)...and just showed me a side of life i had never seen...had my nose wide open as some would say....that relationship lasted off and on for 6-8 yrs....and was good at times but mostly awful overall....a partygirl is not an idea mate it seems :rolleyes: ....after one of our 'get back together' stints we moved in together...lasted 6 months....i tore my achilles playing football and had surgery missed 16 weeks of work etc....instead of her being there for me she lost her mind....couldn't handle the pressure of me being down...eventhough my disability paid the rent and bought food just as if i were still working...that time was pure hell and it was then that i finally realized i didnt' want her at all anymore....she moved out then i moved to another city but was lonely and knew exactly 1 other woman and she was married (she was nice enough to sex me on my bday though)...so i jumped again back into this horrible relationship
by then though i had been through enough that it didn't phase me if we broke up or stayed together i just didn't care anymore but didn't wanna be alone....
(dont laugh) then came aol and i started meeting a handful of women...thankfully only one that i met was nuts and eventually i met my beautiful girlfriend who is absolutely the best person i've ever known other than my mom....shes wonderful to me loves my tour and respects it as my hobby as much as it is and knows how much i love this site and how late i stay up most nites reading and responding to posts.....i started talking to her in nov99 and we've been seeing eachother since feb 00 and shacking up since may 01
nothing is perfect and i sometimes wonder if we'll make it for the long haul (im a pessimist by nature) but as long as i keep doing the right thing by her i think we'll be cool....
sorry to be so long but what im trying to say is keep ya head up and dont let this breakup keep u down any longer....i am by no means a 'catch' i have very little to offer except the good heart that i think i have....if i can do it u can do it
as was also said ...u dont have to look for the right person...they usually come along when u dont expect it but u do have to carry yourself in a way so that u're not a sadsack or giving off negative vibes or that u seem to have no confidence....women love a strong man
nothing gets u over the one u lost like a great new female friend....theres so many women is this world and they are beautiful u'll find yourself a great girl like alot of others on this site have
besides this is summer...the women are tanned and wearing no clothes....if i didnt' have a g/f right now i'd be up to my neck in *****
good luck dude and hang tough u'll pull thru
