Listen, I realize you have no clue who I am, other than what you see on these boards, but I beg of you to please take my advice; do not do anything to yourself. I know exactly what you are going through. I went through this, and still am going through it to an extent. This past March the girl that I loved (the first one) broke up with me, because she came to the realization that she never really loved me throughout our relationship. That hurt alot. So much that about a month and 2 weeks ago, I went down to see her and tell her goodbye, forever. The next day I planned on doing it, and actually by driving into a wall at 100+. By the grace of God, that night my Dad happened to read an instant message I sent to her telling her why I went down there, and stopped me from doing anything. Like Rara said, time is the only thing that will help you. You will get over her, she wasnt the last one that you will have, I can assure you. There is someone out there for you that will love you as much as you love them. You definately need to get out, party, whatever makes you happy and can get your mind off of her. Dont do anything to yourself. I am sure that you have many people that care about you so much. And I dont want to get you down more, but think about what will happen to those people if you do that. They will never get over it, it would destroy them as much as it would destroy you. I know that ending it all seems like a way out for you, but its the absolute worst way. Cheer up, dont think about her, and dont worry about having "no mad skillz" The girl that is right for you wont care about your skillz. And trust me, when your not looking or waiting for it to happen, it will, and it will be the best thing in your life. Be good to yourself, Nick
