Being an antisocial troll will only worsen the problem of ever being able to meet someone who will be TRUELY special to you. This chick who left you can't be worth that much if she wanted to hurt you so bad as to leave you. Anyone who ever hurt me that bad wasn't worth my precious time anyways (which I later realized).
I had a bad experience of my own about 5-6 years ago (no, no..wrong, it was like back in 1994-5). I was HEAD OVER HEALS for this gal who just adored me as well. We got engaged to be married. 4 months later, I had had an accident while on a camping trip that left me on crutches unable to work and so she (and I agreed) that she would go into the Navy to get a career in something she had always wanted to do. (She had this idea even before we had ever met, and that's why she thought of it again after my accident). So she took off to the Navy. I was to meet up in the town where her schooling would be after bootcamp would finish. Her letters were very desperate for my love at first while in boot camp, but soon faded in time, while my feelings for her only grew stronger. I met up with her as planned (still on my cruthes), and she was so different. She didn't want nothing to do with me! She was trying to let me off easy though acting like she still cared, but I could tell the fire was out for her. She all the sudden was not ready to be tied down, and blah, blah, blah, you know, right? Well, so I went home, from Chicago back to lonely old empty Washington, and it took months and months to get the thought of her out of my mind. And it wasn't until I went out and started taking part in many social activities that I started to learn how to improve my personality and attitude. I met many other women eventually, but now, the difference was NOW, I was a lot more skeptical when dating. I was not about to just fall head over heal for the first party girl that came across my tracks. I was looking for women that could only be good enough to meet MY expectations. I wasn't going to settle for another flaky girl that couldn't stand behind me in everything for as long as we're alive together. And you know what happened?? With that new attitude of mine, I, several years later, have actually gotten married to a nice young lady (1 1/2 years ago), who has a much higher respect for me than ANY women I've ever dated throughout time. And she even respects my car hobby too. I can say now, years later, that I am very HAPPY that I didn't wind up with that girl I used to be with (And I can't believe I had sold my '90 5.0L Saleen Mustang for her stupid butt). Just try to slowly gain your logic back here dude, and don't do anything rational. Just be patient, and let time heal your wounds, and get back into cars, or some other good hobby, and try to enjoy life alone and with people
