Pretty rough man! I think the same things sometimes- but you just have to go on one day at a time. I guess it's very intriguing to think that God actually knows EVERYTHING that did happen, is currently happening, adn will happen til your last breath. I often try to thinki- I wonder when my last day is and if God told me, what I would think then.
Just a thought-
God wanted you to go to Iraq to protect many lives- and you came back fine
God wanted those peopel to hodl you up- he wanted a better exscuse to send them to hell
God wanted you to have a125mph spin out because he wanted to show teh dangers of high speed- and let you expereince something many will only experience once.
You see, yeha, there is a reaosn behind everything that happens, what ever they may be, only the man upstaris knows.
I know in 11th grade, in the same week. I hit my head pretty hard on a diving board-knocked out-nearly drowned if it wasn't for a classmate, talked my best friend out of wanting to kill himself, and got shot at in teh woods during hunting. Defently something that makes oyu stop and think.
Hope things get better for you my friend.
